IN THE MOMENT

As we come to the end of another year, My mind reflects on 2010. It has certainly been a Memorable year :) I totally went OUT of my comfort zone into a dimension of NEW UNDERSTANDING, Lost 30+ pounds in the summer, Joined a Womans Rugby team, & found NEW FORTITUDE within MYSELF :)) This year has definitely been the HARDEST in all relationships, with Family, Friends, Acquittance's & even with myself, BUT in the end IT ALL WORKED OUT.... This year as things where rendered to me, I did something different... I LIVED IN THE MOMENT took everything as it came & did my best to handle things in a COOL, COLLECT & CALM way. Never fully knowing what would happen next, yet HOPING for things to be OK, I spent MANY DAYS on my knee's, poring my HEART to one who has NEVER & WILL NEVER LEAVE ME. Yet in the mist of confusion, uncertainty & sorrow, I found PEACE, LOVE, & ASSURANCE.... Each day I am changing, doing my best to see that transformation is for the BETTER of myself & my surroundings. EVERYDAY is a challenge and transition of IMPROVEMENT.
I understand clearly that I ONLY have stewardship over my children, that they do not belong to me but to someone with a higher power then I.... Since I have come to that assumption I have adjusted myself accordingly. Each day when I see these 4 gifts from GOD for ME. I AM TRULY GRATIFIED :) My Kids.... They teach me numerous things, although I admit I couldn't see from the beginning, I'm content with the knowledge I have NOW. Everyday I'm absorbing all that I can in those moments, Ive learned to see different moments of time in slow motion :) It doesn't just happen in the movies it happens in REAL LIFE :) little space & pockets of time stored away for that day when I want to recall them.... So as of Friday Im starting up a Journal AGAIN... I am CONFIDENT this time will LAST :) So that someday My kids, grandkids, generations behind me can learn from... Threw anything & IN EVERYTHING there is GOOD, Day by day I sit & try to capture all those great & astonishing moments of NOW :)