Cant Sleep because Ive been thinking of SO MANY THINGS.... MY KIDS & MY FAMILY.... We recently laid to rest a older Sister Litiane LatuVava'u Finau Lea'atoa, She was diagnosed with Lung & Brain cancer in September 20011 & Made it threw to the New Year, only to be called back home Jan. 2, 2012.... My relationship with with her was that off.... I went to her for advice, knowing she would be HONEST & STRAIGHT Forward NO SUGAR COATING :)) LOVED anything she told me & did my best to do as she said...... I choose TIME as my titled for this entree cause when she was diagnose it was what she repeatedly told me to do with my KIDS.... Give them MY TIME.... "ANYONE can be a stay @ home mom BUT very few can me the BEST Stay @ home Mom"...Latu :) Meaning even thou I'm physically home with my kids, what they need MOST is my TIME..... This is something I have struggled with for YEARS now, 3rd Child Pila is 4 now & I became a stay @ home Mom since he was 3 months, A LONG time for ME :)) I struggle EVERYDAY with the push & pull within myself to go back to the workforce world BUT @ the end of the day, I can NOT figure out what I would do with my kids IF I DID..... WE are a MORE then BROKE family.... BUT my husband, Kids & myself R very healthy & that is something MONEY can not buy.
I knew Latu my whole life BUT it was not until she was diagnosed that I became VERY CLOSE to her, sharing very personal things & knowing her as a person..... The day I found out her heart was failing I could NOT leave her bedside, staying next to her everyday only returning home to sleep for a few hours & returning again, that only lasted 4 days ..... Ive learned & feel so much in a short time & NOW its time to put things into action..... Express & Show Ur LOVE to ur loved ones OFTEN.... U are not promised ALL the TIME you want with them & ANY-DAY CAN be the day U may not see them again.
